MIRACLEBOY

2011-06-22T07:30:00.001-07:00

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So, how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So, how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king
My California King

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

2011-06-22T07:21:00.001-07:00

10:21PM: God is here for me.

2011-06-22T04:25:00.000-07:00

"A little longer, just a little longer. But my hope was dying as the clock kept ticking. Minutes became hours. Hours became days. I had that flicker of hope to see that silhouette at the door. I don't know if I'll feel the same seeing you one second late, or a few minutes late, or a few days late. Because just a little longer felt like forever. Maybe the moment you decided to appear will also be the moment I've decided to leave. Because forever isn't coming."

-anon

There are just too much to cherish and treasure.

2011-06-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

When I think about the Lord, I'd smile. I think about all the people that He placed in my life, at the right time, and the right places. I'd smile. I think about all the good and bad times, but He was faithful. I'd smile. I think about every decision we made together. I'd smile. I think about how His grace made everything that seemed tough turn out alright in the end. I'd smile. I think about all the funny situations that He made me go through. I'd laugh. I think about all the love I've received from young till now, all the people who loved or loves me. I'd smile. I think about how everything else pales in comparison when I think about Him. I'd smile. I think about how I am made by His hands. I'd smile. I think about how the rest of my life is going to be walked through with Him and the people He placed around me. I'd smile. I think about Him, smiling at me. I feel so glad and thankful. When I think about the Lord, I'm still and smiling.

Borders and Me.

2011-06-10T22:13:00.000-07:00

Thank God for the time yesterday that I could go Borders and read some Children's Books! Really enjoy times as such because I get to slow down life and discover good Children's Books ( :

Hug is a good book for young children because it is interactive and simple to understand. Besides that, the monkey is such a cute thing.

Shadow is an interesting book that I picked up to read yesterday. The entire book is only filled with illustrations. It's everything about shadows and how this girl created shadows with her imagination. The illustrations are beautiful and interesting!

Say Hello. It's probably the book that I really like the best out of the rest I read because it is a really simple and good book to teach children about social inclusion. It narrates how a dog is lonely and has no one to play with but then came a big group of children that invited him to play ball with them. And then, later it narrates a boy who is left out and lonely. However, the dog invited him into the game by passing him the ball. A simple but great book!

Ms Peggy showed us lots of Dennis the Menace comics in tutorial to convey some communicative disorders, so I decided to read the entire book of comic. It's really cute and funny.

Glad I had such time.

Always 17.

2011-06-08T00:44:00.001-07:00

Always 17., a set on Flickr.

No faith is as solid as a wounded faith.

2011-06-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

Recently, I've been physically weak and it did affect me spiritually and mentally as well. But, God healed me. And, I realised being spiritually weak is worse than physical sickness. It is draining and lifeless. In fact, when God healed me, I am thankful for the inner healing of my spiritual being more than the surface healing of my physical being. So thankful, really.

Sometimes I feel inadequate or dissatisfied with myself or the things I possess or do. This feeling kind of drains me and makes me feel so annoyed with myself and people around me. I start to distrust people, I compare, I do and feel all the things I know I could chose not to. However, God probably beat me in this area once again. I believe that I might not have the best of everything. However, I know that I have more than enough because of the one thing that tells me who I am and that in what I do, I just have to be the best me, do the best I can and I'd have receive more than I could already.

Hasn't been easy for the past months. There were times I really struggled, but I am so glad I am stronger than before. Because He told me so. I could be who He thought I could be. And, there was a tremendous strength from within that I could not explain.

This fleeting world and pursuits, but one thing remains.

I'd rather be with people whom I can be absolutely vulnerable with/to.

2011-05-26T00:13:00.000-07:00

17. Zikang's Birthday

2011-05-18T08:33:00.000-07:00

Hi Zikang, I shall dedicate a post for you! Happy Birthday, you're 19 now! Just wanna keep this short and sweet: I hope you enjoyed your birthday yesterday! Just a simple one with us (: Thank you for being an awesome friend, leader and encouragement! I remember you encouraged me when I was asked to lead worship and in camp! You're a v affirming person which really adds strength to the people around you! Also, your faithfulness and perseverance in God's plans for your life encourages me! (: Hope to know you more and serve tgt with you!

Love, Hazel!

All sold out for Jesus.

2011-05-15T02:23:00.000-07:00

01. Our flea stalls.
02. Shermaine and vivian's racks.
03. Sarah and Suan came for a visit!
04. Our happy customers!
05. All sold out stall.
06. Our fast selling rack!
07. Pretty Vivian.
08. Our manager, Wayne Yeo.
09. My parents bought goreng pisah from singapore flyer for us!
10. Sandals I bought for vivian!
11. Char. siew. Paus, hehe.
12. Char siew soh, wah my favourite.
13. Our profits=1 chair and 1/3= 1 precious life!
14. Jolene and I, after a long tiring day!
15. Inifity with Vivian's hair.
16. Our encouragement cards for our customers!
17. Four satisfied girls ^^

Thank You God for everything, for making this possible: Dreams do not remain as dreams when you put actions to them ♥

A simple family dinner

2011-05-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

but full of gratitude and thanksgiving.

first week of may.

2011-05-09T06:50:00.000-07:00

I'm only me when I'm with You!

2011-05-02T09:10:00.000-07:00

What does people require of me? Probably we all ask this question subconsciously everyday. Sometimes I find that as I act upon this question, I'd end up feeling the same whirl of emotions over again. "Do I have to do this?", "Why should I say this?", "I have to act/behave this way." or "This is exactly how I should be feeling." because they expect us to. People expect us to, systems expect us to, circumstances expect us to. Probably if I were to find a perfect picture to describe this feeling of never being who I am supposed to be according to the expectations of others or even myself, it'd be a photo of a girl with her feet tied to heavy chains that are causing her to drag her feet or even stay stationary on the spot.

I feel this way, sometimes. It always leaves me feeling uprooted, judged and defensive. It drains me to not have God as my only audience. It drains me to be unaware of God's loving kindness. It drains me to live according to my emotions and feelings. Because I feel so not grounded.

Why do I feel so heavy today?

I want to be absolutely vulnerable. To who?
I want to be able to say I am ___________, but God, come and be my all.
I want to be able to feel at peace in knowing that I live my life knowing God loves me, I do everything I do for the eyes of my Father.
I want to be free from these heavy chains and be able to walk righteously on the paths God has paved for me.

I really am freaking sick of subconsciously living my life based of what everything else require of me and not what God require of me.

God, You're gonna be with me right?
I know You are and that's gonna be enough the the rest of this journey♥

2011-04-30T11:26:00.000-07:00

Love always perseveres. At the end, Jesus would be there with arms waiting to receive us.

2011-04-30T11:22:00.001-07:00

I don’t like talking on the phone. If I talk to you on the phone, you probably mean a lot to me.

(Source: -sicknasty)

2011-04-30T11:19:00.001-07:00

As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed as ignorant as you were at twenty-two, you’d always be twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It’s growth. It’s more than the negative that you’re going to die, it’s the positive that you understand you’re going to die, and that you live a better life because of it.

— Mitch Albom (via kari-shma)

2011-04-30T11:17:00.001-07:00

2011-04-30T11:15:00.001-07:00

Love is not affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person’s ultimate good as far as it can be obtained.

— C.S. Lewis (via kari-shma)

2011-04-30T11:10:00.000-07:00

07. IN NEED OF A NEW CAMERA.

2011-04-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

Hi! I'm selling my camera (in good condition!), Finepix S2500 HD, for 300 bucks! PRICE IS NEGOTIABLE! ^^ Anybody interested, please drop me an email @ hazelfaithaw@gmail.com! thank you! ♥ I HAVE SOLD IT, THANK YOU GUYS!

08.

2011-04-28T08:39:00.000-07:00

09. S e a s o n: Preparation

2011-04-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to like this semester, even though my free day has been taken away. I find that the lecturers are really passionate and I must say I caught bits of their spirit just by sitting in for lessons, trying my best to absorb all the things we were left to think about. The modules are finally more meaningful personally, probably because it is more specialized now than the last 2 years. Am so looking forward to learning more this semester! So........yesterday. All I could remember was I was happy seeing my classmates which kinda chased away the so-called "monday blues", the weather was seriously making me lose alot of water mass and I met 2 lovely humans for dinner! I always enjoy the time we spend together ^^

My sister and I, we look alike right.

The Long Weekend: It was good Friday, then an anticipating Saturday and it was Easter. On Good Friday, we went to share the gospel in town as an unit. Because I haven't did that it one of the longest time, I was pretty nervous and conscious about everything else. However, seeing how zikang shared sincerely and with prayer, I managed to share as well!

Then came Easter. A day of celebration of God's power that overcame death! I must say I am v grateful to God because Easter 2011 was made meaningful for myself and the people I love, including the kids in Kinders ^^

Cheryl and I, Easter 2011.

This is Natalie, she is really pretty right.

A shot taken by one of my kids, amateur photographer but nicely taken.

Teachers sharing and teaching about the meaning of Easter in the Flyer.

For every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under the heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.

Ecclesiastes 3

E n j o y e v e r y s e a s o n o f y o u r l i f e,
for each season God has placed its purpose.

photo post

2011-04-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

2011-04-21T10:15:00.000-07:00

via (leilockheart)

Signatures.

2011-04-21T10:09:00.000-07:00

My church is having an Easter production film in Suntec Hall 403, this coming Sunday @ 3PM! Watch this trailer alright! Feel free to email me @ hazelfaithaw@gmail.com if you'd like to come for our Easter Service! ^^

It felt as if God lifted my toil and placed His grace on me.

2011-04-21T09:56:00.000-07:00

Just heard many wonderful stories from my sister about God's work in her friends' lives and it made me really thankful and "wow". God is truly amazing, I'm starting to feel Easter all over me! The meaning of Easter, the work of God, the love of Christ and the receiving of such grace. I am truly thankful that both my sisters have crossed the line of faith last year. I am even more thankful to see how they are growing in Christ now. And, what makes me really excited is that I am witnessing the kind of impact they are making in their friends' lives and their every effort to pass such love they received last year to the people around them. IT. MAKES. ME. WANNA. SAY. THANK. YOU. GOD. for showing me what Easter truly is about. my heart is overflowing with joy now!!!!!!!

Truth is, a good camera won half the battle.

2011-04-21T08:50:00.000-07:00

Just randomly looking through my photos and I realised I prefer the photos taken with a good camera! I know nuts about photography and I'd really love to take photos daily with a good camera. I should really save up to get one this year!

A lazy wednesday.

2011-04-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

Pencilcase that Sarahbeara bought for me from Korea.

This postcard from Sichuan made me miss the kids there so much.

I enjoyed the fellowship so much today. Zikang was badly spammed by Jillene and it was fun laughing so much about all the nonsense. On a random note, I think that politics are pretty handful. It gets people caught in situations that they dislike. Perhaps we'd question our own character and principles when we're in grey areas. Yea, be wise be wise. I hope everything would be alright!

06. Empty myself

2011-04-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

Therefore, I count it all as loss.
Therefore, I count it all as potential.
Therefore, I count it all as faith.
Therefore, I count it all as chances.

Therefore, dreams can be lost.
But I must never lose the dreamer that God inspired in me.

05. Seek

2011-04-17T07:28:00.000-07:00

He listened to every word I said and memorized every expression.

2011-04-12T22:28:00.000-07:00

Because every face tells a story, every name is a soul. You can't know a 19 year old girl based on that few days/hours/secs. Because behind her name and her face, is 19 years of stories. Always seek to understand because you'll realize that everyone is fighting their fair share of battles. Never make do with all the superficiality to meet objectives, because you'll never know the time invested to listen, to accept, to embrace and to speak into their lives could actually make a whole lot of difference.

02. Others

2011-04-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

Above: This is my new semester's timetable.
Below: Something I wanna share that Hong Teck said in OL meeting today.

I am brand new, everday.

2011-04-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

I often look at how inadequate I am, the sins and mistakes I've done, my past and feel inferior or sometimes undeserving. Truth is, I can never erase all the things I regretted doing. Perhaps there were times I felt lousy about myself, but it's never about myself anymore.

God is making me, everyday. My inner being is constantly renewed and cleansed by His love and grace for me. If I could remember anything whenever I feel like my fears and insecurities are about to overtake me, it'll be about how Jesus came and found me. He healed me and He strengthened me so that He could do His work in me and through me.

I am not a perfect being. Perhaps I've questioned, "Will my scars hinder God from doing a new work in me?" However, I know the answer would be "He will take me as I am and make me into who He wants me to be".

I am in the making, not completed but always in my Potter's hands.

Our hands to give, not just to receive.

2011-04-10T01:05:00.000-07:00

I am excited for "Campaign All Sold Out" where NP is gonna give what we have in exchange of chairs for people whose lives would be potentially transformed and how individually I'd be receiving from God in this entire process of giving! Here we go to give unreservedly!

I am in love.

2011-04-10T00:28:00.000-07:00

In this point of singlehood, I'd probably thought of having another person to being able to share life together with. Probably sometimes to compromise God's best standards for me in times of temptations. Probably there are times where I'd like to say, "I fell in love with..."and be happy with everything in its place. Not in this season. Probably the next season, or the next next season. Sometimes it feels like you want to rush into seasons because of temporary satisfactions. However, God has every season planned out, awaiting us to enjoy and grow in. Never thwart God's ways in our lives, for we do not know what we are missing out.

So as for now, I believe I'd say...
"I fell in love with Jesus" and I am at peace in this very season of my life.

03. Eun Jung

2010-07-28T22:21:00.000-07:00

God first loved, that's why I love.

2010-07-25T06:30:00.000-07:00

Tom was lonely and decided to multiply himself

2010-07-23T09:29:00.000-07:00

If you guys happen to visit tomntoms cafe, try pecan praline tomncinno!

02. Extremes

2010-07-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

01. Beautiful

2010-07-18T20:27:00.001-07:00

This shall be my next hairstyle (Y)

2010-06-24T08:59:00.001-07:00

At my school there’s a girl in Special Education who is constantly teased by everyone.

Today, my girlfriend walked up to her, told her she was beautiful, and asked if she’d like to come shopping with her that weekend, which gave that girl the biggest smile we’d ever seen.

Em, I love the way you love everyone. Your LGMH.

(via LGMH)

2010-06-24T08:56:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend, Justin, lost his wallet one day.

I texted him good morning at 6 AM, getting a reply saying he was at my school where we were the night before, a good 20 blocks away, looking for it.

I wondered what was in it that made him so eager to find it…

I found it at my house. No money, no change. Just the first letter I had ever written him.

(via LGMH)

This is gospel

2010-06-11T09:43:00.000-07:00

12:38amThalia

You know when I went to philipines and boracay last time for quite a long period

hehehe

I thought that like,I could still outreach and do something for God even when I was away frm sg

So...my cousin(Megan.)

She wanted to play in the beach that day..but it was soooo cloudy,the sky was so dark and it looked like it was gonna rain super heavily

So like,I was checking whether she was a christian and all.

She said sometimes she goes to church.

So I told her LET'S PRAY!

for the clouds and all to go away so we could play!

so we did.

And then,Wah I prayed really hard cos you know like,if it started to rain,then...she'll be like....

cos she was only 7

honestly it seemed almost impossible for it to not rain.

BUT IT DIDNT'!!

HAHAHA

seriously,it was like WHOA

the clouds actually went away!

after that she was like "YAY!God helped us!"

HAHAHAHA

I am so encouraged ^^

Thank God for pullin' me thru this time.

2010-06-11T08:51:00.000-07:00

Haha I must say there were many hiccups this entire week, alot of worries, alot of fear, alot of thoughts. But He is surely faithful in every single way possible! Thank You God for being there for me, assuring me and making everything turn out fine! More hectic weeks to come, but I'm gonna take them on with You! ^^ I srsly lack of sleeeeep for this past weeek, seeee what I've been doing for my sleeepless nights.

My walk home,

2010-06-09T07:59:00.000-07:00

I need You more, more than yesterday.
I need You more, more than words can say.
I need You more, than ever before.
I need You more, I need You Lord.

More than the air I breathe,
More than the next heartbeat.
More than anything.
Even as time goes by,
I'll be by Your side.
Cause I never wanna go back to my old life.

I sang this all the way home and I was refreshed ^^

I am left with one more assignment, yay!

2010-06-07T11:39:00.000-07:00

I MISS SICHUAN.

Breathe

2010-05-28T06:42:00.000-07:00

My God never fails, never.

I Was Here - Lady Antebellum (Brice Williams)

2010-05-23T09:34:00.000-07:00

ask me anything!

2010-05-23T07:29:00.000-07:00

http://www.formspring.me/hazelfazel

What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

2010-05-23T02:23:00.000-07:00

Sunday morning 05

2010-05-22T23:37:00.000-07:00

So this is how You feel

2010-05-22T08:08:00.000-07:00

when I decide that something else is more important than spending time with You, when I ignore Your callings, when I choose to do what is less than the best, when I know I'm wrong but I still refuse to repent. Is that how You felt? Angry, frustrated, upset, disappointed. I went through such emotions yesterday, facing the same situations. I was mad, I know I don't get mad easily, but this time I was really mad. In the midst of these emotions, I wanted to give up. I was just thinking the entire time, "Why is loving someone else so difficult?" But, God made me realise something that broke my anger. He feels the exact same way as I was feeling when I do the above except that He never once felt like giving up on me. In turn, it made me realise how loving God is, how accepting, how patient, how much He cares for His children. I thought the amount of care I had for a friend was almost exceeding what I could give, but it seems like the amount of care that God has for His children is something I can never grasp. Well, God's love can break my fall. How true. Thank You so much God!

Sooooo, anyway I'm proud to announce that I overcame my eyeliner fear! I can even do it on others w/o shaking my hands or imagining that the eyeballz are bleeding yayyyyyyy. My v first art piece:

And that's xueli, the silly bird. The drama production today was hilarious, I saw real-life hit girl how cool. Also, thank God for our new sister in Christ from BMSS! ^^ I brought my sista to church today, I really do hope God would use me more to help her in this journey together ^^ I met up with my family after church and my sistaz shopped for their stuff. I was so boredddddd in most of the shoe shops, so I doodled.

I know right.. all I can think about now is tau huey which I will get tmr morning.
Can'twaitcan'twaitcan'twait.

2010-05-20T07:26:00.000-07:00

Many things have been on my mind.

2010-05-18T20:57:00.001-07:00

I am deeply aware.

Be amazed @ Picnik.com

2010-05-17T03:20:00.000-07:00

While waiting for hiclub to start, I am being entertained by picnik.com. HEHE, this is the photo I played around with and check out keith's expression complimenting the lightning!

Menstrala

2010-05-17T01:13:00.001-07:00

I just knew from my crc tutorial that there is such art that this courageous woman actually used her menses blood to paint. The blood is preserved, woah. Art is.. amazing. Limitless, but not literally because of the natural process of menopause HAHAHA.

2010-05-16T23:28:00.000-07:00

(via orientaltiger.tumblr.com)

2010-05-16T19:03:00.001-07:00

"People put others down to bring themselves up because they fear what they don’t understand and are jealous of what they do not posses." (via teozhixiong)

he forced me to hyperlink his name HAHA! He wants to fart next to me because I have a fart face. Yes hazel has a fart face, aww....

2010-05-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

I love/want/need You more than anything else in this world

2010-05-11T09:24:00.001-07:00

God, rain down Your presence on me. I wouldn't want to take one step without You. This is my prayer tonight. I know You've heard me. Amen.

Banana Nut Crunch time with chloe meow ^^

2010-04-22T19:19:00.000-07:00

Best combination for any meal, been eating this for my meals too! I had a good chat with @chloemeow, thanks for being real and all! (: Looking forward to more of our food hunts! Anyway, the first week of school has been good except that I'm still trying to switch back to school mode. Oh well.

I'm weak and I have real struggles, but You still love me the same. This, gives me alot of faith and strength and hope. Thank You God.

01. Question the obvious

2010-04-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

Don't underestimate the power of "What if"

2010-04-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

Would somebody enlighten me about having faith. With much of the limitations we place on our faith, are we still having faith? Whatever happened to having much faith and even when it didn't turn out as expected, we keep the faith? We get people who don't understand laughing and mocking at how much we believe, but isn't God pleased with such faith? Seems like it's a 0.001% that things are achievable, who dares to believe? And if we have such consistent faith and if that 0.001% happened, isn't it a 0.001% chance of showing that God is real in our lives?

I do realised how sometimes I lack faith and believe the seemingly possible only.
This isn't how it should be..

Hungry, Hungry, Very, Very.

2010-04-13T14:20:00.000-07:00

Why am I always hungry? I want to eat all the time.
Cinnamon meltz
Auntie Anne
Char Kway Tiao
Honey milk tea
Passionfruit bubbletea
coconut icecream
.
.
.
.
and the list goes on.
My cravings, ahh.
Ogay, there's a butterfly in my tummy.
That is really really fat.
UGH HUNGRY!

The thing about love

2010-04-13T13:45:00.000-07:00

I saw this on Zachary Young's wordpress,

If you have fallen in love with my weaknesses,
you have fallen in love with me.

How true, love is this.
Not ticking against a list of ideals.

Collide-Howie Day

2010-04-12T02:43:00.001-07:00

I'm quiet you know,
You make a first impression.
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind.

HAHAHAHAHA!

Appreciation

2010-03-31T20:29:00.000-07:00

HI WORLD. Sichuan experience was awesome and unforgettable! It broadened my perspectives on many things and also, gave me a new meaning of appreciation. I grow to appreciate things I have more, relationships and people. I told my sista how much I appreciated her 2 nights ago, but I meant it. I know how she puts me needs and even my wants before hers and I really hope to acknowledge more of such in the future. I can't help but to thank God for blessing me with such wonderful bunch of ppl I live with day in and out including my ah ma! I started to appreciate her cooking dinner for us every single day (: Really man, if we can show our appreciation to our friends, maybe it's time that we show appreciation to our family too? ^^

This time round, I'm gonna slow down my life, pursuing the important things and not everything. I rmb asking myself "What's impt to me?" before leaving for Sichuan. Now that I'm back, I know what's impt to me: Relationships, r/s with God and Man.

Anyway, yesterday was a good day spent @ JB with @zacharyyoung, keithjosiah, joannelee, desmondheng and aaronkang! Haha played paintball and ate an awesome meal of seafood with just 5o bucks! And, I came home with a swollen thumb. BIG FAT THUMBS UP HEHE ^^Alright, jolee's waiting for me for a swim! Bye!

2010-03-13T08:06:00.000-08:00

What's important to you?

I found God in the dirt.

2010-03-05T10:21:00.000-08:00

I'm sure we've all seen volunteers who love the underprivileged going down to those dirty places, getting their hands dirty just to better the lives of others. There's one thing that I'll never forget. It was when I got my hands soiled with a lil boy's shit while carrying him. But strangely, I didn't mind though I almost wanted to puke cause of the horrible smell. You ask me why? I don't really know, maybe cause I love that lil kid. In the midst of all these dirty things we do for others, I felt God's heart.

God is clean and Holy, seated maybe on a throne that has not a single bit of dust. But there we are sitting at His feet, dirty and undeserving.

You'll find God in the most dirty places. Places like our hearts, our lives, our trails. Sometimes we think we're so dirty and undeserving for such a God to come hold our hands, we try so hard to clean up the dirt on our own first. But hey, God is already there. In the dirt, with you.

taylor swift \m/

2010-02-24T19:37:00.000-08:00

@ 1:37AM I opened my journal

2010-02-17T09:36:00.000-08:00

Solitudes

2010-02-16T01:59:00.000-08:00

As much as I love being around people, I treasure solitudes. I reflect the most when I'm alone. Each time I reflect about different things, but there's always one same thing which I would end up reflecting upon which is God's grace in my life. I talk to people whose hearts seem to be seeking something for that one thing that satisfies. It makes me thankful that I'm already living by grace so that I may know that everything that is given to me is not by my own work but purely by the grace of God.

Nudity of our souls

2010-02-01T06:43:00.000-08:00

That's what I go to school for, hehe! ^^ It's the last stretch of our Year 1, let's give our best to end off well! Really thank God that I landed in T03 (L)

Nothing to prove, nothing to lose, nothing to hide

2010-01-29T08:05:00.000-08:00

TGIF stands for Today God Is First (Y)

I've been flashing for the past dont-know-how-many-hours. Mmm it sounds weird, flashing. It's my assignment that requires flash. Quite a nightmare, cause I'm an IT noob. Well, it seems to be the stress season. Everyone's drowning in their projs and assignments and working through the night. But, God is the strength of my heart! (Thanks lovelee for reminding me of that^^) What's the present compared to what God has in stored for us!

Zach and my Dad said something similiar recently: Why is it that some people who are lowly educated can still make it bigger than people who are degree, masters, phd holders? The difference is because the latter is unwilling to risk their high qualifications, so they always take the safer path. Whereas, when you have almost nothing to lose, you wouldn't mind taking a risk to do something big. It made me think how we always are so cautious to live life on the edge. Is it the lack of faith or the relunctance to let go of what we think we fought hard for and deserve to keep?

Let my faith be: Nothing to prove, nothing to lose, nothing to hide

My Bubblegum Classmate

2010-01-21T05:58:00.000-08:00

This is Sarah Lim Wei.
This picture is deceiving because she hates reading.
She looked like duck when she was younger,
WHAT A QT ^^

How strong is our faith?

2010-01-18T17:16:00.000-08:00

"It doesn't mean anything if Satan hates me, because God loves me," sing the women at Jeremy Square, their faces almost invisible in the darkness of this powerless, shattered downtown. "God has already paid my debt."
-http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/34903373/ns/world_news-washington_post/

I don't know how exactly it can be judged or measured, but it's admirable to be able to say this when such a disaster occurred. I was reading the articles on net and I'm ashamed of myself because their faith is strong. Even in the midst of barely surviving, they can sing and have faith in Jesus. I'm encouraged, but yet these are times when helplessness of my own ability sinks in. I can pray, at least.

Your love is so overwhelming

2010-01-16T05:46:00.000-08:00

My ipod's filled with oldies and I'm satisfied. This cover of mamamia is (Y).

So, I turned 18 yesterday! Thanks to everyone who text, fb and called me to wish me happy bday! Also, thank you cheryl/huiwei/jolee for the pretty night spent and my classmates for the surprise and the gifts! And, my awesome family and the gift you guys got for me! I was really glad that I could write a long birthday thank you letter in my journal to thank God for the 18 years that I've been graced to receive! ^^

Calling for all earthlings.
What's our greatest calling?

Jesus said, "Father, forgive them. For they do not know what they do."

Our present is just a scratch

2010-01-10T07:37:00.000-08:00

We'd always like to think that we want to go to a certain place or be a certain someone to be a help, but more than that, I think that when we go to that place or be that somebody in someone else's life, we can actually carry the mentality of learning. Nobody is indispensable.

When I'm there in the unit/lg, I wanna learn from the people.
When I'm in the kindergarten, I wanna learn from the kids and the teachers there.
When I'm on a community service trip, I wanna learn from the people there.
When I'm with my family, I wanna learn from my sisters.

It's not that help that they need, it's the exchange.

Monday chases the blues away!

2010-01-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

There is joy in Your name

2010-01-01T08:53:00.000-08:00

Some of his disciples said to one another, "What does he mean by saying, 'In a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me,' and 'Because I am going to the Father'?" They kept asking, "What does he mean by 'a little while'? We don't understand what he is saying."

Jesus saw that they wanted to ask him about this, so he said to them, "Are you asking one another what I meant when I said, 'In a little while you will see me no more, and then after a little while you will see me'?

I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.

-John 16:17-24

There is joy in the name of Jesus, there is joy in the Word, there is joy in prayer (: So, every Amen shall be joyful because there is something powerful being done behind it.

You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

2009-12-30T00:56:00.000-08:00

Wished I could watch them perform LIVE.

ignorance isn't always bliss.

2009-12-17T21:33:00.000-08:00

“We’re the generation. We can’t afford to wait. The future started yesterday, and we’re already late.”
– John Legend

Let my heart be Your dwelling place

2009-12-08T05:46:00.000-08:00

Today, I saw this book @ Jurong Regional Library during our tutorial library search and this simple book made my day. If any of you wants to read it, you can borrow it from me before the due date (: It depicts how a lil boy asks his mum about how big God is and his mum uses nature and creation to explain to him. The best part of this book is @ the end when,

The boy sighed, tired after their long day together.
"I'm glad that such a big God can still fit in my heart, mom."
"Me too. Out of all the places God is, that's his favourite place to be."

2nd test down, thank God seriously! Last one tmr and 1 assignment to hand in on friday! I'm vv excited because I get to go to my lil cousin's house tmr to do my observation for my assignment hehe! Ahh I shall bring along the finger puppets I got from IKEA and play with her tmr! This week is yet another hectic week, esp with youth camp coming up on monday (I'm vvvvvv super excited alr!!) I want to share about me able to make it for the camp. Because the week that camp falls in supposedly should be commontests week for most people. However, my tests does not fall on that week so we were supposed to have lessons as usual which also means I wouldn't be able to go for camp. But, God is a good God! It turns out to be elearning week which means I can go for full time camp except that I've got to do my elearning work in camp but really thank God for this! (: I feel awfully peaceful despite the many things to be done, and this feels real good (Y)

I've decided to have 1 entire day to myself in the term break (Y) Library? I'm really enjoying children's books now (:

Who is man that You are mindful of him?

2009-12-02T08:36:00.000-08:00

So faithful, so constant and so true.
So powerful in all that You do.
You fill me, You see me.
You know my every move.
You love for me to sing to You.

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that You have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are.

Past few weeks been busy, assignments and tests been piling up but I know that I can always and am breathing cause of a 24/7 bestfriend that would never fail. Today, I simply feel thankful. Goodnight!

this is my prayer today

2009-11-23T07:49:00.000-08:00

Dear God, I thank You for being faithful for all the times I was faithless. You know my every thoughts and I pray that in everything, help me to not lean on my own understanding but Yours. Life can get a lil overwhelming, but I want to be sure of who holds my hand day by day, bringing me through step by step. Thank You for Your word that prevails, the stronghold of my life. Hope to know You deeper than before everyday! You've been awesome friend, all the time. In Jesus's name, amen.

2009-11-17T07:02:00.000-08:00

Been placed here for a time as such.

2009-11-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

When this road gets a little tough, smile while fighting. Times like these, where you fix your gaze upon gets you exactly where you should be. Mum and Dad, I love you and I hope you know that God does too. This was what I was wrestling with. I'm an imperfect daughter, with imperfect parents. We need a perfect God. This was also what I wrestling with. So then I prayed.

Beautiful Sunday

2009-11-08T07:46:00.000-08:00

2009-11-05T07:29:00.000-08:00

I wanna sit at Your feet,
Drink from the cup in Your hand.
Lay back against You and breathe,
Feel Your heartbeat.

I wanna have Your heartbeat.

My source of strength

2009-11-01T08:53:00.000-08:00

Honestly, I've been so drained for the past 2 weeks that I was grasping for joy. Just want to share this divine thing that happened during the past 2 weeks. First one was when Joanne Ang told me over msn that she dreamt of me looking very sad and the second one was when Zuoen told me that she dreamt of me crying at a playground. Both of them asked me if I was alright after their dreams and I was really touched. Because I felt as though God has been watching over me. He knows every thing that went through my mind and every emotion that I was struggling with as well. I feel thankful and really comforted as well.

I was so busy with things everyday, but He reminded me being is greater than doing. I need to remember this, always come back to my r/s with Him. Isn't that what matters the most? Thank You, be my source of strength (:

Even in the midst of all these, I feel really blessed because I've got really great classmates that made school enjoyable, my dearest shepherd and girls whom add on to my joy in serving God and wonderful friends that always encourages me.

In fact, there's one person I want to thank especially! HAHAHA EE SUAN, THE PERSON WHO SAYS THE MOST STUPID THINGS IN THIS WORLD. Haha honestly, you may not know this but you make me smile everyday! Thank you for hearing me out when I have my bad days. I should start recording all the retarded things you say everyday hahaha!

FINALLY

2009-10-26T05:15:00.000-07:00

Thank You for holding my hands. Yours hands once bound, now saves.

Thank God for the afternoon spent with the girls! I really thank God for the simple and fruitful fellowship today! Recently, I've been pretty busy and the state of my mind have been pretty much like the state of my table hahaha! In the midst of all the mess and busy schedules, I really want to thank God that I can take delight in the simple things in life. Thank You, thank You, thank You!

2009-10-16T11:58:00.000-07:00

Because if you are willing to believe, nothing is impossible with God. This is 100% true.

2009-10-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

Ephesians 6:18-20 (New International Version)

¹⁸And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

¹⁹Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, ²⁰for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

Would you carry the cross daily? I wear a cross around my neck everyday, but a symbol remains a symbol until I carry the message of Christ across to others with my life. God help me to do this with You, thank You!

WOW

2009-10-13T09:57:00.000-07:00

fearless, fearless, fearless. There's so much to learn from children, really.

bring the good with the bad

2009-10-12T07:40:00.000-07:00

By His wounds, we are healed.

2009-10-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

We are either part of the solution, or we're part of the problem.

2009-10-09T09:49:00.000-07:00

John calvin showed me this video, awesome! Nice vocals, nice version of seasons of love.

As I was compiling my learnings abt worship this week, there is one thing that I can't help but to nod my head like a million times at.

"Worship comes from the heart overflowing with thanksgiving towards God."

Everyday is a worship unto God (:

2009-10-08T06:27:00.000-07:00

The day is described in details on cherynn's and jillene's sites!

I really enjoyed my day with these 2 kids, or should I call you guys lil imps! I shall be disciplined and go do what is supposed to be done now!

Seriously, KBS WORLD shouldn't let me find it ahhhhhhhhhhh HAHA!

All you need is love

2009-10-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

Let's lead in taking the way that we are sure of, let's go!

2009-10-06T08:41:00.000-07:00

I've had just enough of the spotlight
When it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood
And I've tasted my share
Of the sweet life
And the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough

I know how i can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be
Filled with you

Ive seen just enough of the quick buys
Of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away

I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you

Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
Compared to you
Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
So I surrender all

You got to be empty to be filled. We can't keep filling our lives with things that satisfy that moment, that second. With every second, with every minute, with every hour and with every day, these things fail to fill our hearts. How many times would we seek fame of the moment, ambitions of things that don't last, achievements that would be forgotten? How many times would we feel the loneliness we get in a crowded room, the emptiness we get when the fun is over, the greed we feed when it never gets enough?

Fail to answer what we are living for? Fail to see that all we own now would cease?

God, how many times we drown when we fight to fill our lives up with nothing? How many times You have to save us from this drowning in all the foolish things we refuse to pour out of our lives? Father, let this be my prayer today.

Empty me.

I want to be filled with the things that lasts, even to the extent of overflowing.